You want the truth? Here's the truth.
I think about you ... a lot. I really do. I think about us, not really in any location, or doing anything; we're sort of in this vacuum. I think about what you're doing right now - halfway across the world. I think about your favorite songs, your favorite things... you're such a dork.
I can't help it. I'm miles away - make that thousands of miles - but I'm always reminded of you. Maybe because your name is such a fucking common word it's everywhere. Maybe because every song reminds me of you, like those cheap movie tricks. The only way this can get worse is if your first name was ... Koala. Because I've been seeing that around an awful lot too.
It's really bad, I know. You're not alone in this buddy, I'm scared of myself too. I don't know what's worse. The fact that you don't feel the same way, or the fact that I'm obsessing about how you don't feel the same way, or the fact that deep down inside, I probably don't feel the same way too.
Man, this is so fucked up.
"What is this blog about?"
"Absolutely nothing."
4 comments:
oh shit, no
You want him this bad because your ego can't accept that he doesn't want you. It's that simple. Have you ever thought he doesn't want you because you're easy for him to have? I'm sure he too want something he can't have. Like that one girl he is chasing right now who probably don't care much about him. Had he want you back from the start, you'd probably just blew him off and tell him to "just be friends" because you would know that you're good enough for him. It's kinda like how you crave acceptance and attention from your parents who are aloof to your affections. But every girl have to get her heart broken and break down in devastation at least once in her life. It would teach you a lot. Right now, I can safely tell you he is thinking of some other girl that he really wants, and unfortunately, that girl is not you. Its hard to have someone on your mind who clearly has someone else on his's.
eeek! What do we readers have to do to take away that feeling?
Shit, you really are a human being... I can't believe you only reveal this once at the bottom of your blog! I was beginning to think you were a terrible person but you're just hurt... I don't know what happened between you two but I hope you heal soon... Depression makes you fun to read but it's probably really shitty for you.
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