Too long for Twitter.

So last night, I had my first experience of being genuinely scared in America. Of course keep in mind I am a paranoid person, so all this must be read with my paranoia in mind.

I was walking to a restaurant with some friends, and it was a neighborhood that was not too brightly lit, hence fucking scary for three girls walking there. 

And then it happened. From behind this man approached us, and started talking to us. He said something like, "I just want to ask you a question. Hey, I just want to ask you a question. Don't you have any black friends?!" And then went on to harass us about how we don't have any black friends and that we are scared of him for being black, or something like that.

He was, of course, black.

First of all, buddy, if you're going to come up to us and in your first few lines you say, "Don't you have any black friends?" that's going to make us think you're not mentally stable at the moment, and it's going to scare the shit out of us.

And then he just kept following us as we walked on, ignoring him. I was the last one in the trail, so I was feeling pretty fucking scared. For the first time, in my life, I genuinely thought I was going to be shot. (See what I mean about my paranoia?) (Also it's the first time I've been in a country where it's legal to own guns, and a country where 78% of homicide cases are gunfires.) 

I was scared. Don't get me wrong. It's really a minor incident, and I've been more scared in Malaysia when I was alone in a cab at 4am and the cab driver just kept making the same turns, over and over again, and wouldn't let me off, and I genuinely thought I was going to be raped, killed and have my body thrown into a ditch somewhere. (See what I mean about my paranoia NOW?)

(He just ended up dropping me at some random apartment, where in an attempt to get in I had to pretend like I was a stepdaughter who just moved here from Singapore and I'm too scared to call my mom to let her know I'm home, so the security guards should not call my parents, and just let me in.)

(It worked.)

This just got me somewhat miffed, because of how sensitive that man was to being black. And a lot of people here, actually. I admit, I get a little more scared when I see black people, but that's because a lot of the crimes I've read about and heard about have mostly involved black people. Can you really blame anyone if they want to step up the security on a certain race if there are statistics showing they commit crimes more than any other race? 

Bah. Whatever. I was just really quite scared, and cold, and those aren't good combinations, so I've found out.

America greatest country in the world, yo.