Monday, February 28, 2011

This is my hug to you.

Fuck me in the face. I gotta stop updating my blog every ten days, I know I know. I'm actually doing this for someone on Twitter, who said I needed to update my blog, because it's like a hug to him in his difficult times. I felt his pain, because probably just last week I felt so incredibly down, like I needed a hug too, but I was not given one. Which is just sad. That there's no one here I'd want to ask a hug from, or who would probably give me one when I said I needed it. I thought about it for a while, and it just made me even sadder. Back home I definitely did have plenty of people to smother. So if you have people you can hug, right now, be happy. You're in good hands.

Life sucks. Yeah, sorry Twitter person, this is probably not much of a hug, is it? It's like a hug with thorns. Because right now I feel like my life has way sadder moments than it does with happy. I've given up trying to find the reason why. Maybe it just is. Maybe some things just are. Maybe this sentence doesn't need to be.

I'm always caught in that place where I want something I know I really don't. Every. Time. But I get upset anyway, just because I can't get it, and then when I extrapolate this desire, only to find that at the other end of the line is non-desire ... I sink into a life crisis.

Godfuckingdamn this. Maybe if my vibrator came faster I wouldn't be in this crisis. Stupid online store based in PA whatever that is.

12 comments:

Oliver said...

I'd give you a hug! ^.^ also, did you know that you're like one of the only other people I can find with a blog on facebook? I just started mine so maybe I'll find them in time - yours is interesting though.

Predator said...

Did you know, you are our inspiration. Every moves you made will impact the millions and millions out there.

I give you a hug too ({( (}) msn icon!!! You made my day and we can live for another day :)

k³ @ 42-gruffy said...

interesting theme for your blog 'what is this blog about, absolutely nothing' reminds me of the song! anyways nice writeups, keep it up!

Ding Wei said...

XOXO

Anonymous said...

ONE L.O.V.E.

d00d said...

i'd give u a hug....but then you're full of thorns. now.

Nicole said...

be happy for existing. You're so active in curriculars, just say to yourself that you're in this dump for your future, which will be incandescent bright, i'm so sure.

kev said...

virtual hug? :D

I'm a girl so please don't be terrified.

Gabrielle said...

Hugs to you :)

Anonymous said...

HELO, WHY HIDING UR FACE, U GOT PLASTIC SURGERY GONE WRONG MEH? COLLAPSED NOSE? OR ONE SIDE UP ONE SIDE DOWN CHICKS? OR LIPS SEWN UP YOUR NOSE? HAHAHA. MY FOOT

simplicityx said...

^ some people are so stupid and weird. surprisingly, they still manage to find the comment box and leave an even stupider and weirder comment.

hugs for you mayzhee :)

Socks said...

pennsylvania, hon.