Gotta write it down when I can. I feel great. Despite the fact that I have to take an HIV test later, to process my visa application for Russia. Oh yes, Russia. I'm getting more excited by the day. This is my summer plan:
1. Chill the fuck out in NYC in May (I need to find a place to stay too, anyone leasing for the summer?)
2. St Petersburg for June
3. Home, bitches, for July and August
Three of the best places in the world. How lucky am I? How do I have friends when I have such an awesome life, really. Don't you all hate me?
But I do feel great. Better, I feel free. There's no better feeling than to be liberated. I think it's a yardstick for how awesome your life is. Take writing, for example, and I am totally stealing this quote from a professor I heard at a lecture. She said that it's after getting a rejection letter from the publisher, and knowing that you still wanna write, that's when you know you're truly free.
Same with debate.
Same with men.
It's when you know that you can be hurt and broken and defeated by men, but that you'll survive, that's when true liberation comes. When nothing can touch you, and you're invincible. I used to be like that. Fuck Eduardo. Fuck Alex. I brushed them off and went on with my life. Sure, I fell for them hard, and sure, I wish I had a life with them, like the two girls with them are probably doing right now. But nothing can compensate for the relationship I have with myself - the greatest one of them all. We are both very much in agreement with each other. Sure, we argue sometimes, and we name-call, but we sincerely love each other at the end of the day. We also possess the Hitachi Magic Wand HV-250R, otherwise known as the best creation on earth. We're good.
But yeah, HIV testing in 45 minutes. I hate needles.
8 comments:
oh throbber in hand? could've called me!
Yay! Welcome back, May Zhee! That is, assuming you won't go all emo again...
By the way, I know someone who has a vacant apartment in New York, would you like the number?
:)It's really good to see that you're happy.
yay! sunshine! :)
totally loved the last paragraph ! Enjoy and be happy..
Liberation, its the most wonderful feeling ever. Glad you're back and feeling much better. ^^
woah i was roaming around the internet and decided randomly to come here. and upon reading the last paragraph, i'm now satisfied enough to go to bed
happay for you. <:
"It's after getting a rejection letter from the publisher, and knowing that you still wanna write, that's when you know you're truly free."
This meant a lot. And awfully true.
P.S. Glad that you feel happy. :)
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