In what world can a girl not walk four blocks to the nearest subway station without being harassed verbally every. single. fucking. time? In what fucking universe is it appropriate for men to point out your tits, or ask you what you're doing tonight while you're walking down a street? What the fuck kind of education are these people receiving??? How were they raised??? I don't know, and I don't plan on staying around to find out.
I don't know how so much shit can be concentrated in one area. I really don't. Am I supposed to be glad or sad that everything bad in life is focused into one neighborhood? I don't know.
I lived in Chelsea for a night when I first got here, and then Astoria in Queens, and I've been spending two weeks now walking around Manhattan - sometimes late at night. Never have I felt more unsafe than in Harlem. The horror and disgust I felt when I had to walk fifteen blocks, because I was confused about the train stops. Oh my God, seriously, who are these people? Have they not seen a yellow-skinned woman in their life? They're sure acting like it. I am seriously disgusted. That is the only word I can express for how I feel here. I have been harassed, hit on and stared at by people regardless of gender and age. You'd think the old people would know better - no. You'd think the women would know better - no.
And that's in the day. At night, it gets a hundred times worse. People talking loudly, violently, acting aggressively. Last night I heard someone breaking bottle after bottle on the road outside where I am living. When this happened in Queens, it was followed by police sirens - relief. Nope, not in Harlem, where everything is just so fucked up.
There is no "charm" about this place. Some areas are so bad that they have their "charm". I get it. Yeah, not here. Not in this shithole. Maybe if you're a 30 year-old black male, or 45 year-old white male, or Hispanic, or someone these people are afraid of. Not for a 20 year-old Asian woman.
When I stayed in a hostel the first time, I swore on my life I'd never go back again. Now, compared to this shithole that spans the entire neighborhood ... I think I'm considering moving to a hostel in a nicer area again. At least there are cute French boys there to keep me company.
Seriously even the subways suck. How can the subway system suck in New York City?? God just wants me to hate Harlem. It takes me fucking longer to get from Harlem to Midtown - both of which are on the same island, btw, than like Queens to Midtown - which is on a whole different island. But the subways are nicer, cleaner, come more often and not as crowded. Everything about my trip in this area has just been shitty.
Everytime I'm in this area, or even on the subway ride back, I have this look on my face.
I hope it sends my message across, which is "FUCK YOU GO AWAY I'M NOT INTERESTED."
Because if I try to say it to their face they'll likely whip out a gun and shoot me. Or stab me. Or punch me. Seeing as they have no respect for women, I would not put it past them.
The next time I am called out by someone again (which will probably be in the first 30 seconds I step out of my building) I feel like stopping them and giving them a quick lesson on how to be behave civilly. But of course there is that complication of me likely being shot/stabbed/punched. God I love it when I have no choice but to keep quiet.
I don't know how any sane-thinking woman can live here. I really can't. I'm getting the fuck out of here, even if I have to fork out more money.
11 comments:
Take care!
nah u look adorable here, more so, coz it tells rather easy, you're trying too hard to put up and it generates the feeling of fear inside you. and with that dress and flowing mane? you'll be a target for ogling. to stave off unwanted attention, dress up with a sense of business - sharp.
hahahaha im sorry but you're quite funny when you are ranting!
get out of there if you hate it so much.
lmao rant all you want girl. though seriously, I thought Americans are civilized. or at least that's what they seemed to be on tv.
guess i was wrong.
Take care of yourself! Maybe you need a Taser?
Omg, Harlem is a black people area! 10 yrs ago, any white or asian goes in there will never able to come out!
People in Malaysia and Singapore who have NEVER been to America even know that you shouldn't even go to Harlem!
Plus you are a young & very attractive asian woman, (you know this to be true), and by all intents and purposes to those morons you probably look like someone who is much much younger, I dunno, maybe someone in the 10th or 11th grade!
In any case, if you can survive there, you probably can survive anywhere! It is good that you have decided to get out of there. I am confident that your financial backers would be more than happy that you made that decision even though they may not that be so with the shopping and all that.
Be safe.
MN
Omg, you should be getting out of there this instant you realize how dangerous the place is instead of ranting on your blog. How stupid can you be? I'm sure your parents will send you money if safety comes first.
"mayzhee getting done in harlem"
-jonah jameson's dream ghetto headline!
There is this video circulating over the internet and is creating a big buzz for some time now. It is a video where this sick pervert walks around with his hidden camera while another accomplice brazenly strips off the clothes of girls and leaving them semi naked in public places.
http://tzh.jimdo.com/2011/07/23/perverted-man-stripping-girls-nude-in-public-ladies-beware/
Um, aren't you like 22 or something?!
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