There was a time when criticisms and insults bothered me. This blog might even have witnessed this, way back then. And then I stepped over that bump. Major. I remember clearly when I was no longer bothered by what people said about me, when I could face the worst criticisms, laugh and move on - sometimes even taking a sick pleasure in it. I told myself I will never again be unnecessarily judged and derogated, even if it means secluding myself from a sizable section of society. I just didn't care anymore. I was way too comfortable with myself for that shit.
And I cannot believe this is happening again. All this belittling, telling me how to lead my life, pre-empting problems for me that I cannot even begin to see (yes because I'm going to spend all this time I have trying to solve problems that I don't even know are going to happen, instead of focusing on what is good for me now. Yes), telling me I'm despicable, a hypocrite, a disgrace to all things wonderful (this one's true), that I'm a fucking cunt.
And I have no real response to all that. The situation is just too implicated by emotions. Mine, and his. Minds have been made up. It was tragic.
In other news, I've also been called a "semi-functional autistic immigrant who will be lucky to touch shit with my hands" by an American. But I laughed off that one, and called the guy "cute". Stupid kids trying to fuck with me.
9 comments:
I know you'll get through whatever hardship you face. You're strong. You always have been.
Especially love that last part.
apathetic
Just go on with your life...remember, you are YOU and no one can change that! ;-)
The kid was not trying. He fucked you there and then and it goes right up your anus! That, my lil bitch is because your of self-importance persona and condescending manner of deriding everyone else who's not agreeable with you.
Pathetic blabberer!
I agree with farkdat. You gotta learn to be open-minded.
^i agree. Stop being a "cunt", so self absorbed, and a worry twat maybe life will get better. just saying.
interesting blog btw
Reason why I am afraid to study in ang mo countries. Staying in my little hole cause I'm not strong enough for shit like that. ):
But you're not like that. RESPECT!
people can be difficult.. occasionally criticisms ought to be taken into account but at the end of the day you've got to stay strong and not allow yourself to be so effected that you've lost yourself :) that's what i think anyway :P
Treating the whole world as if it works for you doesn't suggest you're special, it means you're an ass.
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