What a calm, calm start to the year. So the reason I haven't been blogging is, you guessed it, I'm happy. I'm blissfully, uninterruptedly, definitely happy. Things have just fallen into place and I felt like my pieces make sense now. Maybe we're never really meant to pick up our pieces, or put them back together. Sometimes things just need to look right.
And look right, they do. It's official. I'm staying put where I am. It took a year to smooth out the bullshit, but we're here. I'm so glad, because neither of us wanted to go through that "weird dance we did last year", as he puts it. Making the leap from that weird dance was, well, weird, but it happened. And it's been greater than ever. Not just in terms of us, but how he's just such a great human being to be with sometimes. I'm comfortable with him, though at times I feel like I shouldn't be. He's very smart, and constantly challenges me on things, though he usually is never able to change my mind, and his criticisms link back to him just as much. Sure, he may have the tendency to mess up in the typical (cave)man way, but he makes up for them almost instantly, though I admit to being the petty bitch at times. We step forward, we move backwards. I like it.
We function like really, really, really great sex, except with that dynamic taken out of just the carnal realm. We should be really dysfunctional, but it works. Seamlessly, beautifully. I feel like we've merely transitioned from unhinged turmoil to contained chaos. Not to mention, we have really really really great sex.
I'm happy. I don't care how long this lasts. It can end tomorrow, but I'm just really, really happy. He's a special one. What a keeper.
